When a stockbroker found himself as the leading suspect in the murder case of his ex-girlfriend, he hanged himself and left two notes behind confessing to the crime. Because the cops considered him the prime suspect in the murder of his ex-girlfriend, the stockbroker decided to end his own life, while writing two suicide notes, calling his ex-girlfriend a “piece of s***” and admitting that “most of the stuff you will hear is true” except for the allegations against him regarding the illegal images of children.

Just a month after 25-year-old Stephanie Parze went missing from her home in New Jersey, John Ozbilgen, 29, killed himself. He had just been released from jail on charges of possession of illegal images of children.

Parze was reported missing on October 31, 2019, by her mother. The young woman failed to arrive for her babysitting job and never responded to any messages, which was not like her. Parze’s mother placed a 911 call and said that she was in contact with Ozbilgen, who said he had seen her the night before.

When Ozbilgen became a person of interest in Parze’s case, the cops conducted a search of his home and computer and found images of children, as young as three, being abused. The images were stored on his computer and phone.

Now, the Monmouth Prosecutor’s Office has made Ozbilgen’s two suicide notes public. One of them addresses, “Mom, Dad, Sal, Sammy,” and the other is addressed to an unnamed girlfriend.

“Sorry about all this craziness,” he wrote to his parents. “I’ve been miserable for so long now. I had enough. I can’t do life in prison. I dug myself in a deep hole. This is the only choice.”

He continued, “Most of the stuff you will hear is true except the child p***. I would never do that.”

Although the notes do not mention Parze by name, he does write about “the girl in the news” and refers to her as a “piece of s**t.”

Ozbilgen had a long history of violence against women. It was the only way that he could make himself feel like a man by beating on someone not as strong or as big as him. In the last three years alone, Ozbilgen had three domestic violence reports made against him. One was from Parze on September 23, 2019, about a month before she went missing.

Another ex-girlfriend told police that Ozbilgen choked her unconscious during arguments and sex. She dropped the charges because she did not want to face him in court.

In his note to his ex-girlfriend, Ozbilgen writes: “I love you so much, little lady… I don’t know what I was thinking when I (messed) our relationship up… Recently, I tried to reach out to you. You got a restraining order? Why? At that moment, I felt like my entire world ended. I really needed you in a huge way. Look at the mess I created. LOL.”

He also asked this ex-girlfriend to “please help my parents with my funeral. Sorry for everything. I wish I could go back in time and correct my mistakes, but I can’t.”

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